Saturday, October 13, 2007

FOLLOW YOUR HEART!!!

Follow my heart!!!-That's been my new year resolution&for once in my life, I'm proud to say I've kept my promise to myself!!Somehow i don't know why-but I feel like I've finally grown up this birthday...:).....This year has been quite an emotional year,a turning point of sorts for me...
As someone said, we don't even follow 10%of what our heart says and always are what other people want us to be....All my life,I have always been a most prim&proper person(as my sis was teasing me sometime back)- who was always bothered about what other people will say!!!I have always hesitated to do small little things in life...may be wearing western clothes to relatives places or hv a short haircut or even speaking up against something!!!It was always WHAT WILL THEY SAY!I don't think we even know who "they" IS!
The funniest part is no one really gives a damn what u do!!

This year ,I suddenly realized I hv no identity of my own& said to myself-Enough is enough............
So I'm finally doing what I always wanted to-be it speaking my mind,changing my look or doing a family dance (I was fed up watching only others on stage) or even wearing jeans to family meets!!!I used to want to do that every year(esp when I used 2 see the others so comfortable &I used to be sweltering away in the salwars &sarees)-No one really cares a hoot -everyone is too busy in their own lives to bother about what u're doing or not doing-in fact all I got was appreciatn:) For example- I always used to avoid wearing jeans to my aunt's house-the same problem -what will the elders think-And the other day she saw me,&turns around and says-why don't you always dress like this-u look much better than in salwars!I was like ......:):D lol ..Just shows how unfounded our fears really are......


I think another thing in which we all have been indoctrined is to take everything lying down-It's always-why bother-things r never going to change anyways attitude-so don't interfere.........
I'm glad I now have finally found the guts to speak up against injustice -and not have a laid back" what can I do,why should I interfere attitude!!!At least in the recent tragedy affecting one of my cousins,I'm happy that at least we stood by her&were ready to give her any support possible.If I could make a small difference to anyone's life,I'll be at peace!!!! I'll do my best in whatever small way I can&leave the rest to GOD!!!